Jackson's headstone

We finally got Jackson's headstone! We are really pleased with the way that it turned out. We will be putting it in either this week, or we'll wait until next month & put it in on his 2nd birthday. I am going to love visiting his grave and seeing his name. My brother Shawn just got home from his mission 1 1/2 weeks ago. He left 6 weeks before I had Jackson. I wasn't expecting it, but having him home has brought back so many memories of my pregnancy and Jackson's birth. I think because I never grieved about it with Shawn, I almost feel like I have to do that now...it's really weird. Before he left we always talked about how he would have an almost-2-year-old nephew when he came home. The age that Jackson would be right now is one of my favorites. I'm just really missing him right now. I am positive that he is where he is supposed to be, but there's still that ache in my heart that I know won't go away until I see him again. I'm just glad that I know that I WILL see him again someday. I really can't imagine dealing with this without that knowledge. Life is good though. I was talking to Bekah this past week about how a mother's strongest desire is to know that her child is safe and happy. I have the opportunity of always knowing that my little boy is safe, that he is where he is supposed to be, and that he is doing great things. I don't think that I could ever ask for more than that.