Overwhelmed

When I wake up in the morning, I lie in bed for about 30 minutes, trying to gear myself up for the day & trying to figure out how I can make it a good day. Then I get up and take 2 medications & wait 30 minutes until I eat breakfast. (If I was smarter, I would have the first 2 medications by my bed to take right when I woke up.) Then once I have something in my stomach, I take pain medication, a probiotic and sometimes ginger root for nausea. I then wait about 45 minutes for the pain medication to kick in...so it takes about 2 hours from the time I wake up until I can function somewhat & try to get things done. That is my morning routine right now & I really don't like it. I really dislike being on pain medication. It makes me so "out of it" sometimes. I can't focus, I can't drive, I can't think. If I don't take the pain medication though, I am in bed the whole day. I don't know what to do.

If the GI specialist can't find anything wrong with me, what do I do? I feel like I have no options. My endometriosis already makes me feel that way. These stomach problems just add to my pain & worries. I have no plan for my life. I can't set long-term goals while dealing with all of these things I'm going through right now. I am completely stressed out and overwhelmed. I started having pain last night (and am having it right now) that has to do with my endometriosis. Like I said before, I still have a REALLY terrible week every month. Every month I forget how bad the pain is until it hits. It takes my breath away, it is so painful! It honestly feels like labor...I'm not kidding. Even on painkillers, it hurts A LOT.

I have so many things I need to do this week. Doctor and visiting teaching appointments to keep, a wedding dinner & reception to go to, grocery shopping, Primary stuff, etc. How can I get these things done when I am in bed because of the pain or I can't drive because I'm on painkillers? Welcome to my life.

P.S.-I know I'm being totally negative...I'm trying to snap out of it.